I HATE HAYFEVER!!!!

Aaaaaarrrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its driving me mad this year!

I cant remember the last time I actually wore eyemakeup and didnt look like I’d been fighting after five minutes!

I cant breathe through my nose, my eyes sting like hell, I cant wear my contacts because my eyes are too itchy and my glasses are irritating the f$*k out of me because my face itches so much! Ive tried every over the counter hayfever product going and its just not working!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I’m feeling smug!!!

Having a good day today. Had an email through yesterday offering us discounted tickets to Playhouse disney live in nottingham. VERY discounted tickets, a quarter of the price to be exact!!!!

Instead of them being £20 each, they are just a  fiver! So in effect, you buy one ticket, get four free lol.

Madness!

Anyway, we’re booked to go see it the day after Jacks birthday (Good timing eh?) for the 5pm showing.

I honeslty dont know who’s more excited, Me because of seeing the kids faces, or the kids becasue they are going to see Handy Manny etc etc

 

Anyway, enough with the smug faces…

Its suddenly dawned on me Ive not updated this for ages and that all the posts so far have been moans…..

So, trying to focus on positive things…

Jack went for a hearing test again yesterday. He suffers from glue ear (Too much fluid in his ear canal) He did very well and for the first time really understood what they were asking him. He played the “games” well, did what he was told and even had them all giggling at his reactions. He let the doctor check his ear and didnt flinch once! (A huge improvment from last time) I think it helped that I had been pretending to be a doctor looking in his ears before we went in, and explained what would happen beforehand.

Apparantly his hearing is “adequate” but if it stays at the level it is at the minute WILL need some sort of intervention. Something to drain the fluid from his ears. Im guessing gromits. It could affect his learning ability in school as he struggles hearing things when theres a background noise. We are goin back in four months time to test again, as he has a cold at the minute, and then we will see what happens.

The positive thing is, that now something actually seems to be happening about it. His speech has improved 200% recently, he actually holds conversations with us rather than just talking gobbldygook.

Another positive thing is that I have regular hours at work, I can budget better, and I can plan my time and the kids routine more. I also am able to take them with me for half an hour till Karl can pick them up after work.

Jacks started pre school one afternoon a week and is settling in really well. He whinges a little bit when we leave, but by the time we’re walking round the outside of the building he’s off and playing with whatever toys are out that week (I can see him through the window). He actually asked to go this week and wasnt impressed when I said he had to wait a few hours!!!!

Lukes clingyness is wearing off a little bit. He still wants me if he’s tired or hungry, but he’s trusting a few more people now. Before, he would sit on my knee for the first half an hour of visiting anyone, including my mum and dad, and Karls Mum and Stepdad. Now he’s happy annough to run off and play at theier house straight away and will even follow certain friends around. I cant wait till he starts pre school, its going to be difficult I think because he wont like me not being there to start with, but hopefully he should soon settle.

The only downside at the minute is Karls work. He’s under a lot of stress at his main job, having to sort out problems (The majority of which are not his fault wither, but someone elses lazyness!) The window tinting side of things has quietened down a hell of a lot too! I think its a combination of more and more companys locally offering the service, and the credit crunch meaning people simply cant afford to splash out on what is considered a luxery! Other people we know with thier own businesses are struggling too so its obviously not just us.

Our house is almost ready for selling though thank god so we can move out of this shitty area and hopefully move somewhere that world war three isnt starting every two minutes!

 

The Pain Doesnt stop when the baby arrives……

I’ve recently realised that just because your lovely baby arrives and has just either put you through heel during labour or made sure you need months of recovering after a c section the pain doesnt stop.

A couple of weeks ago Jack was having a cuddle on the sofa, turned round and slipped, headbutting me in the process…… half a bottle of foundation, lots of powder and shed loads of concealor later and you couldnt really see the two resulting black eyes!

Tonight we were messing about as I was getting Jack ready for bed, he sat on my knee getting his trousers on and threw himself backwards and yup, you guessed it… Headbutted me again!!!!!

My nose immeadiatly started bleeding, Luke started wailing, Mummy said several hundred “Grown up naughty words” and her nose expolded allover her nose… Now even an hour later its still bleeding occasionally the dull throbbing in my face is getting worse and Its getting more difficult to breathe through my nose! lol.

I’ve had a quick feel along the bridge of my nose and while its not got a bump or lump there its cracking like mad.

I darent look to see if its bruised, the thought of sitting in front of a mirror tomorrow and then having to explain to everyone that my two year old has broken my nose isnt an appealing one lol

I just want a day off!

I am officially having the day from hell. I hate mondays at the best of times but todays been one of those “curl up under the duvet” days.

It started off quite promisingly, I woke up to Jack singing a combination of twinkle twinkle and Happy Birthday (The only two songs he knows I think) and Luke shouting through to him to shut up.

Bought them both downstairs even managing to do so without the usual argument with Jack about coming downstairs and not being able to play in his bedroom all day. Ha I thought, a good day thank god!

It all went downhill rpaidly from the moment I mentioned breakfast.

After asking both of them what they wanted for breakfast and finally deciding (After a discussion about how chocolate isnt for breakfast) ww would have jam on toast.

I made it, got them in thier highchairs and then Jack started whining “My not like jam on toast” “My want cereal” Then it was arguments over what we would watch on tele. Im being a bad mother today as I feel like Ive been hit with a truck and stuck the tv on to keep them quiet. The whining was increasin volume at the same speed that My head was getting worse so I just let him get on with it and left him to eat his toast and whinge to himself. He was just in an awkward mood.

Eventually we ate all our breakfast (Jack forgot about whinging and ended up asking for more) and I tidied up a bit, stuck the hoover round and ran a bath so I could de jam them before Jack went to nursery. By this stage I was feeling seriously crap. My head was banging and i have got sod all energy.

I went upstairs to grab towels and the dog tried to run past me, knocked me into the door handle and I now have a huge cut in the middle of my back that hurts every time I lean on it or catch it!

After soaking the bathroom, tantrums about hair washing and scrubbing teeth and paddys becasue we had to let the water out we got dressed and took Jack to nursery.

He didnt go last week as he was ill so I was expeting him to act up a bit as I left, but he screamed, threw himself on the floor and tried to grab at my legs crying. It was awful!!!!! I felt horrble leaving him, but I know that if I went back he’d have done it every week. Last time he went he cried for about ten minutes then settled.

Luckily when we got in Luke was shattered so we sat and watched a bit of button moon on the tv and choilled out having a cuddle.

Went to pick Jack up who had very quickly forgotten I’d left and was quite happily playing with cars and what have you. When we got there of course luke ran round playing with all the toys and I had to drag both of them out the room and round to the car. To top it all off it was chucking it down so Id got to get them in the car as quickly as possible.

Jack ran straight into the car door as I was trying to get Luke in and as a result has a huge lump/bruise in the middle of his forehead. Fantastic!!!!!!!!!!

Eventually got home and Ive just stuck them in bed for a bit. Im waiting ten minutes to see if Jack settles then going up there myself. I’ve already told Karl Im going to bd when he gets in.

I hate being ill. I have to struggle on instead of just giving in for a day or so and feeling better quicker. Karl cant take time off and theres no-one to look after the kids. I’ve spent the whole day letting them pretty much run riot and I’m ashamed to say I’ve been having daydreams about them having naps all day so I can get some sleep!!!!!!!!!

Wading through Treacle

Today is one of those days where Im constantly wishing the day away. The kids are acting up, Jacks shattered and taking it out on anyone who gets in his way and Lukes going through his hitting stage. No matter what I try to do I cant get anything done properly without having to stop constantly and break up some sort of fight.

Karls rung me to get me to ring our mortgage company about moving and Ive not had chance. Ive rung them three times so far and every time I ring I end up having to put the phone down and stop them hitting or screaming at each other. Its hard work but I keep focussed on the fact that it wont be like this forever. In the next few months we should hopefully have a garden that they can go and play out in and Jack starts nursery in september so I will have more time to focus just on Luke. Its also getting more springlike every day so we should be able to go and feed the ducks, go to the park etc without freezing after five minutes.

We’re off to Mum  and Dads tonight for our usual thursday visit so no doubt I will get lots of “Emma, jack/luke needs his bum changed” Emma they want a drink” ” Emma he’s picked that up and he’s not supposed to”

I know Karls been at work all day, but I sometimes wish that people would realise that Ive not exactly been sat doing nothing all day and that sometimes instead of spending five minutes moaning about the fact that Jacks nappy needs changing again they would just do it for me! Drives me crackers when Im running round sorting juice and food out Im being shouted for to come and do something else while everyones sat watching the kids doing whatever it is that they shouldnt be. Its like Im the only one with a pair of hands! I appreciate they are my kids, but would it really kill to give me a break and a hand with them every so often?????They are iwth me 90% of my waking day.

Anyway, I didnt intend my first post in my new blog to be such a whinge, Im off to make the most of the half an hour or so break that I will have today. I think coffee and a slice of toast is in order!